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(Thursday, March 27, 2008-)
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# Page 39: Physics Common Test-

I really am distraught when typing this...

All my hard work and effort I have put in amount to a very very stupid score.
I hired a tuition teacher and even came prepared to the exam.

However,
I looked at the paper.
I wonder.
Why the heck I can get it wrong?

Paper 1 I can't do as well.

Paper 2 I can at least do better right?
I am confident in my answers.

Then imagine the shock I have when I receive the paper. All the ones that I expected to get correct, were wrong.
I hate myself.

Why?
Why?
Why???

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(Tuesday, March 25, 2008-)
+7:10 AM]*

# Page 38: Math Common Test 2008-

Let us review what went on, both rights and wrongs.

Like I said this is one of the best math tests I have done so far.
And I made a disclaimer that it may not be as excellent due to some external factors.

I have made it extremely clear.

In actuality, I am kind of disappointed with the marks that I have.
Integration which I have fervently practiced for came out.
But apparently I have missed out some crucial points in answering the questions.

This costs me dearly.
With other random mistakes.
I really hope to eliminate it from the 'A'Levels itself.

Mother is really questioning me now.
Why some people are getting 93 marks for this paper and you get 58?
Yes
I got 58. With all the studying in the holidays.
This is the result.
I felt that this is the best paper I have done.
This shows the rest of the exam could be or even can be worse than this abysmal mark.

I should be feeling contented with myself, (Heck no, lest people pointed out that I have low goals... yadayada..)

But from what I "should feel".
I should feel a sense of accomplishment and tell my parents that this is the result I have achieved.

However currently, I feel that I should deserve a kick in the pants for all the mistakes I made.
Heck!
Even Tay Yi.
That slacker can get 73...
Why and how could I get lower than him?
One feeling and emotion arose.

Jealousy.

Something is wrong and I could not put a finger to it.
But,
I know if I persevere I will do well.
I will go beyond.

Signing off

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(Saturday, March 22, 2008-)
+12:30 AM]*

# Page 37: Common Test 2008-

Okay....

Let us do a recap on the Common Test shall we?

I want to thank my friends for supporting me through these times.
Dorry and Zhen Qin and Alan and most of all Jonathan(s) for keeping me rein in and in check.

Ok.
1st day: Math, One of the easiest paper of the exams I have done. But that may not constitute it to be A or any equivalent. But to keep positive. It was fun to do.

2nd Day: Physics: Paper 1 was so... so.... not enough time. Ok. At least only two questions left. Paper 2 was significantly easier. Paper 2 was so covered in correction tape and make it as if the whole paper is 'liquidated'.

Two hours later is the Geography Paper.
This is where I was most inspired and most worried paper in my life. I wrote until I cannot write anymore.

Final Day:
Chemistry is so insane!
Paper 1 the 1st few questions were taking such a long time to complete...
Then when I looked up there are 30 mins left. For just 1 hour they gave you 40 questions comparatively to Physics where they allow you just 20 questions!

Ok.
Thats it..

Signing off

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(Wednesday, March 5, 2008-)
+6:06 AM]*

# Page 36: Despondent Trust-

The common tests are a series of tests, not exams.
That is what some people said.

If you fail these series of test, it will one way affect your future.

I also am quite worried about my studying techniques nowadays.
I am quite distracted.
Not by the computers but my surroundings.

I was so, tired after a day's work.
I was envious about my siblings who were able to enjoy holidays as holidays instead of just thinking holidays as mindless studying sessions.

Ok.
Back to serious topic here.

Here is my study plans for the holidays.

Morning: Geography
Afternoon: Physics, Math
Late Night: Chemistry

Kinda mindless right
However, I best study at late night. So I put my worst subject at the last.

But with study with friends, I can study even better.
Ahaha...

I gotta continue on my mindmaps now...

And it still haven't until half yet...
Its gonna be a long day...
Signing off

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